Frustration

I can't help but feel frustrated. The person in charge told me that only when the school accept me then I can get a scholarship but if that's the case, that means I will have to take A levels or do 2 years of working. Both I do not wish to waste my efforts on and both I do not agree.

There must be some f***ing way to get through this. I just need to find it. And I will keep finding what I need to do. Sighhh....

Anyway, today was fun. I learnt a lot of things like how to support a person when he is standing up and about the observations of the people. Which makes me more thrilled to do this myself. I want it badly. But like they say, what do I need to sacrifice for it? and the importance of the sacrifice.

Sigh... so from tommorow onwards, I am going to find out what I need to do and keep looking for ways.

There must be a way!!!

2nd day of internship

I had fun for the past 2 days. I actually worked in a cardio section where I get to learn the methods and ways to get people to mobilize themselves in bed and how to make them feel better.

I also had to see gross stuff like phlegm and poop. >.<

But anyway, I find that I am not as emotional as last time where I will weep each time I see a patient. Right now, it is to do what I can and what procedure that I have to undertake.

I also found the many challenges into entering into physiotherapy. I have to lern chemistry and maths and science T.T. And also, the difficulty into entering physiotherapy in Nanyang Polytechnic. >.<

But never mind, I need to find ways NOW!! so that will be my clutter for next week. RAHHH!! will be pushing hard to find!

Tmw I will be in cardio (chest) section again and thurs and fri will be in auto (bones) section. =D Cannot wait! FUN!

=DD

God bless!

A reminder

Heya! welcome to the revived blog! hahaha! i haven't update for so long.

Ok! so long story short. I actually attended a workshop called "The Courage To Create" and after that I started having classes about making courage.

And so this entry is to remind myself the reason why I started wanting to learn physiotherapy.

It started 2 days before the TCC workshop started, I had Nafa test which is quite fun becuase it is not so strict. We had our shuttle run and suddenly one girl fell down. Turned out that she had a permanent injury from before. So i went to help her.

While helping her to sit down and checking her knee, i realized her knee was sprained so I could not massage it. But then after a while, her ankle was starting to ache and I helped her massage her ankle.

And somehow within me, I found a deep unexplainable joy. And it comes from doing massage. I had always wanted to relieved people from stress and when they are, I felt happy. The thing is I am not a psychology person, so I do not really want to take that career up. It's too emotional and draining for me.

But i thought, if one day i can help a person stand up on her own 2 feet, wouldn't it be great?

On the first day of my making courage class, It drawn on me that I did not take massage as a career because it is just too hard for me to take or I thought there is no road. But there is and I found one.

Physiotherapy is a way that I want to take because that way not only do I learn massage, I help to give the other people hope that they can do things beyond their physical limitations and because I want to stretch towards that direction.

Physiotherapy is a vehicle that I can take and use but I do not have to be stuck with it forever. It is a tool. Mainly, I want to massage. And so I will.

There are many times I keep asking myself why do I want to take this step. This is the reason why. And I am going to stand fast against it. Because it is what I want to do.

Btw, I got myself my very first part time job-- a piano teacher! =D

Step by step!

God bless!