Moving cobwebs aside

heya! yes.... it's a lonnnnnnnng looong time since i updated. But truthfully, there is a lot of things happening. Like me considering overseas, deciding what i want out of life and how my career can push me there.

There is also the lesson of failure and that i guess it is not something to be ashamed of but it is something that is excruciating, heartbreaking and many times, weary. But from the lesson itself, it is time to learn and move on. And then, i think i have been comparing myself from the past. In fact, actually it is Now to move on.

I see many flaws within me that I refused to admit but i think i really should. Like how i anxious and excited I can be when handling people or leading people. Like my words can seem sharp and threatening that cause people to be hurt and how I always take the easy way out. Perhaps I should look more into my self and people's reaction and behavior towards me instead of reading their character.

I want to expose myself more to things i never done before and I want to learn. But first i have to figure out what do I exactly want in life. but anyways, yeah. Maybe I should do a lot more self reflection. hahaha!