CRITICAL REASONING SKILLS B

PSYCHOLOGY AND COUNSELLING B+

Design Studio C

Interior Technology C

Theory of Design C

Computer Aided Desihn & presenttion D+

Here are my results! I PASSED^^! BUT DUN CARE! MUST JIA YOU! JIA YOU ELEANOR JIA YOU! COMPETITION IN 2 DAYS TIME!^^

Birthday XD

Happy birthday to me^^! hahahaha^^... ok! It's like a normal day becasue i didn't go out or anything but i find it really special and really... weird?

Why weird? here are the reasons:
1. I look good (usually my face's tradition is to break out and my stomach is not very obedient either>.<)

2. It's the hols for me

3. I am not stressing and go ARRRGH over homework or tests

4. I just look good^^


But other than that, I am really really happy. I know I m going to second year in my course (MUST IMPROVE XD) and I really thank God for all the gifts he had given me all the years and made me what I am today^^! Thank God so much!!^^ I am Super super happy when people remembered and greeted me happy birthday! I am really really happy^^. You can say that my birthday is quite easily forgotten over the years. Not saying that i m something special but i guess some part in me just want people to know. Hahaha... Am I strange or what.

But the truth is I am happy that everyone said happy birthday to me and i want to thank you truly from my heart.

My family celebrated with me yesterday at the restaurant Valentino, one of the best Italian restaurant in this country in my opinion. The food is MMMM... delizioso *kiss fingers*... Love the deserts*_*... Hahahaha... but yeah! I am really thankful to everyone who wished me and celebrated with me^^!

THANK YOU EVERYONE AND I WISH YOU TO HAVE A GOOD YEAR AHEAD!

Thank u!

To the people who are concern over me in tkd, sorry i was a littlr unappreciative. I was trying quite hard that i forgot to have fun and I was a little frustrated.

Anyway, abt my first job, i may not be so good yet! But that doesn;t mean i cannot improve. ELEANOR JIA YOU JIA YOU! It was my first time to do a flyer (graphic design) but while having fun, hope can improve a lot more! Must jia you!
And do good!

Anyway, i was feeling a little down today, because of some problems. But after seeing so many people take care of me in tkd, I wan to say a big THANK YOU! I m really blessed and happy to be side by side by you people.

I also thank God for giving such blessings. I learn today that I must have confidence in God and the things i do. A special friend, Sun jun, told me that there r times to relax and be serious and be confident abt myself.

I know i kind of sound strange here like a little kid, but i guess i m jus happy with the things i have now and i really really appreciate them^^.

i loooove yesterday

Yesterday, went out with my best friends after a very looong time. Believe me, it's really long since the three musketeers went out together and have a great time! Went shopping with the cutie pie, Madeleine and the hot sexy babe, Sherie. Hahaha... I really miss hanging out with them. Madeleine bought really cute clothes and stayed overnight. Pity sherie has to go home because she had work today. But i really had fun last night chatting with madeleine.^^

Btw,its the very first time we took neoprint together. Here it is:

what do you think of this story?

There was once a girl who lived a sheltered life,
everyday was something new and happy,
and then a wizard saw her pure soul
and he came up to her with an evil intention
the girl knows he's bad, it's obvious

Thw wizard told her," I give you the ability to speak to the deaf,
but once you have the ability,
you will die after one month.

The girl thought about it...
and said yes

From then on, she could speak and sing to the deaf
until when the day comes
when she laid on the bed with her family around her
"Are you sure of this?" They asked.
"It's my life anyway," she said with a smile

As she passed on,
the wizard collected her pure soul,
to use for his spell to spread sickness,
but what he didn't know was the soul could think for itself
and the spell didn't work

Through his frustrated tears
he saw a girl laughing and smiling

The thing here is if the girl refused,
the wizard will not be able to cast the spell
and she still have her precious life.

What do you think?

first time clubbing

I have no idea about clubbing until now. Hahaha... i didn't know it was this fun. Let's see, last night i went clubbing at zouk and MOS. The drinks were pretty good. I had shots like apple stewdal and sex on the beach. There was cherry brandy too. I got high enough but not high enough to go tipsy and shout I love the world.

Too be honest, I have no idea how to talk to my cousins. Maybe i am just too shy to open up to them or I just don't cliche. But other than that, my cousins were quite protective over me and I really appreciate that. Hmmm.... I do find it embarassing though. I was always the one to be taken care of. But at least we are all family. I may not fit in or may not be able to open up. But i am willing to try. I will definitely open up next time and have more confidence ove myself. I think life will be better this way.

Well.Overall it's still quite fun. I actually danced from 12 - 3:45am from house to mambo to R&B. pretty cool huh? That's abt it. I had some fun.^^

whoohoo!

Thanks god so much. You know, getting promoted to year 2 in Poly is not a big issue to many people but to me, it's like wow. I feel so So relieve and so happy. I can't describe how relieve or happy i was. After 1 year in failing in MI and 1 year of really totally slogging for my assignments, i went to year 2. It's a small acheivement yes... but to me, it's really big. i could even feel my tears.

I feel really thankful for my family supporting me especially the decision of transferring to poly and helping me with my work during my assignments. If i am demoralized, they always say encouraging things to me.

But i am not going to stop there. I am going to improve myself, I want to improve myself. I want to turn that dream i have into reality. So the first step will be my time management.

But other than that, I just want to say that I am really really happy about this. and really glad^^. it's feels so wonderful when my family said congrats to me.

hols

Ok... this is ther first hols that i really have nothing to do and i really really am not used to it. But then, again, i will be speaking the total opposite when i start working.

To be honest, all i want now is to know if i can make it to 2nd year. that's all i want.

But that aside, i also have a fun time. Last Sat, went to plaza sing and esplanade with Alice, Anglia and Sharon. It's pretty cool. I had the pleasure of shouting over the rooftop of esplanade. Somehow i got the impression that the guy near me thinks i am crazy. He gave me that "look" >.<. Hahaha... but it's quite fun actually. =P









Then i went swimming with my best firned, madeleine yesterday. I have thinned down a bit. That's pretty good. It was my first time going to jurong east pool. I looove the wave pool! it's so fun. Of cuz i came back with sun kissed cheeks and nose, but it's so very fun. But something not so good happened last night. I wish i can hug her.

Life does have lemons i guess, but i shouldn't forget the yummy cherries and mangoes... hahaha... but of cuz, words are easier said than done.

i dunno wad to say... it's over?

hmmm... It's over? The project is done and submitted and marks have been taken down. But to be honest, i know i ought to feel relaxed and happy. But i have these groundless fear of not being able to pass. So i am writing this down for some relief. But pls do not bring this topic up. It's not meant for people to give me encouragement and assurances which seems to very assured.-.-... sorry! it's just that i trat this blog as a way to broadcast the feelings of me. Of course there will be certain secrets but there will be these things in general.

Anyway, there's a movie that tug my heart. 881... I thought i won;t like it but it left me having affections for this movie and how people live. Dremas to be fulfilled, people to cherish, the importance of money, preserving the culture and so many things. But i really really found it touching and nice to watch. It's not like the other films, depressing and having a uncertain end that makes me go huh? The show is like having precious and happy moments and cherishing those faithful moments. There's also a certain humor in them and how people smile and be strong when they come to trouble.

I hope that I will be able to be trong and alays stand when i fall. Never give up and have a smile that brightens the day. hmmm... somehow the show took sentimental thoughts out of me. Hahahaha...

Yeah, but anyway, the show is nice.

GO DOWN IF YOU WANT TO OFF THE MUSIC!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!

Happy new year everybody and god bless! I hope that all your wishes come true and that you will be healthy and happy.

To be honest, quite a lot of things happened in 2007. First, it's my transfer from MI to SP.

Honestly, i was near depression duing that period of time before i decide to go to SP. I guess it's therealization of who I am and my flaws. But i dd somehow have a "new life" when i came to SP. I didn't regret withdrawing from MI, not at all.


Quitting the school is quite risky especially when i do not have a place in poly to go. But, thanks God that I really did got in. Anyway, it's not because i regretted joining MI, NEVER. I just don't fit in there. I am thankful for being in there. It's like a wake up call.

I guess i did change a bit. But i think it's not enough. I mean I don't want to change my entire self, i just want to be able to THINK for myself. instead of depending on the others.

It's not bad or anything, but i believe it's good to be independent. Because the one who can truly affect the future is myself. BUT! haha... it's easier said than done. But still, i really aprreciate my friends who are always there for me, giving me advice and tolerating my nonsense. I really appreciate it alot!^^

Anyway, I had some relationship problems this year. It's not surprising but it does hurts. It's somehow predicted by my feeling i guess. But after talking it out and compromising and finding ways to solve it, it's much better.

Then my grandmas had passed on. Not one but two, on both sides. Honestlt, i was scared when i first experience mama's (my dad's side) funeral. Guess i had not been to a funeral for a very long time. The second time, it's not too bad. But it's still sad. Reall sad. Both of them cared for me, both of them really loved me. My aunt told me about m grandma on dad's side. She always talked about me. Always smiled when i visit her. Haha... I can still remember how she would sit by my side while i draw. then there por por (my mom's side. she always cared for me when my parents are not home. Pet me to sleep when i got out of bed at night when i am yound. I guess i am closer to her because i get to see her often. I really cried a lot when she died. But I know boh of them are happy and resting.^^

Also, there's my first year in Interior Design. Hundreds of sleepless nights and late nights, working working working. There's frustration, I was tired and grumpy. But a brand new experience. I felt that i can appreciate art. I really want to be like i was in the beginning, eaer to learn, full of passion. So much fun. But at the 2nd semester, i wasa zombie for 2-4 months i think. But to be honest, I think i didn't feel depressed throughout the thing. I can still smile, i can still laugh, i don't have to cheer myself up every night. Also, i was too tired and busy to be depressed a thing. Took me two weeks away from the project to become myself again.

I learnt about psychology too! It's really fun! But to be honest, the information in the book is so elementary. Wish there's more. But yeah, i guess i did change a little. But it's progress!^^ Let it continue.

My resolution is to manage my time,lose weight and believe in myself. I think.


Anyway, Happy new year to you people out there. God bless and may your wishes come true!

wow music

i don't know but i never hear such a orchestra song that gives me the impression of the music itself is dancing before. The asian way of dancing, the graceful dancing. The lively dancing with feet tiptoeing at any time, the hands in the air, the smile of dancers dancing.

WOW....

SWITCH OFF THE MUSIC BELOW LEFT IF YOU WANT TO HEAR THIS MUSIC!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

This past 2 days, i have been eating and eating and eating. I think i better get off my lazy bum and qork out. Doing hmwk is also a must do. So the next few days, i am DOING my HMWK!

Had fun though. I can still remember my Godma's chocolate fondue fountain. Awfully tempting and sinful. I love the food on the christmas table. But i guess wad i really like most is the company. Met 4 adorable kids. Always playful but they are good kids (i think). Yup1 I spend last week training for my tkd and also i think i need to improve my physical condition. So i think it's time to attain some dicipline here.

Anyway, i was reading a person's blog. Call me naive, i don't care. But while it's ok to open your eyes and see a person's character. I don't quite agree if u see them as bimbos. jerks and sadistic maniacs. I mean, I have to admit, i used to think that i am better and seem to look down on others. Also tend not to trust anybody and found no way to laugh at their jokes. But it's natural i think. Because i had been hurt by people before. Thinking that way does help give you support. The hardest thing is to open yourself up and smile and trust people after the hurt had been done.

But it's been a year. Ever since this year after i took the first step, i now see people as my equals and not judge anybody. It took a while to take away that habit, but it worked. I don't know, but it seems to me that maybe life would be better if we lighten up a little. I don't see any wrong in it. It's ok to laugh at jokes at yourself. but remember to uphold that self-respect and not let people ill treat you. There may be flaws and weaknesses but don't forget that you are the same. After all we are are human beings. Even if we on't see the flaws in a person, he or she may have it hidden or we just missed it.

Anyway, at least that's what i think. I don't think the world is perfect and there may be a time that i myself will get hurt again. But if we are to shut our eyes and ears and our hearts, i don't think there will be happiness, or at least that's for me. It's not easy i know, but i think it's really worth to give it a try.

sudden poem^^

I was watching this show, Hwang Jin Yi. A touching show but the dances are really... wow! I admire the lady, standing up for herself, being strong minded, gifted in every ways. She's also really beautiful. The only reason why people look down on her is that she is a courtesan which i find really sad. Probably the first show to make me cry so badly until my eyes got infected >.<. Check this video out! GO DOWN BELOW AND STOP THE SONG IF U WANT TO SEE THIS VIDEO.




Anyway, the show left me thinking about it and I suddenly got an inspiration for a poem.

If beauty….

If beauty meant eternal sorrow,
My heart will bleed for its lovely tune,
Lest it holds that much hope,
Perhaps fragrance will change chances,
Hold strong the flower of Far la so,
Make sure it tramples not its soul,

Idealism makes the lark cheer,
Lest it didn’t the lark swallow,
Hold strong my wish to be,
I give thee hope if to make such beauty.

heh...

Do you know, it's really funny as if my mind is quite unpredictable, my emotions are really unexpected. I am actually feeling that i am blessed by god now. i wonder why. God has been so good to me. He gave me family. He gave me friends, he gave me passion, he did not give me a perfect life but he gave me a some things in life which makes me smile and laugh and think wow.

it's so strange this feeling. Like something i never feel in a long time. It's so very strange. strange...

Anyway, the weekend was good. I enjoy the outing with anglia and alice. Hahaha... they are both so funny. We visited the design exhibition about the works of an architect, alva alto. Then we gourge ourselves at Ala-meen. the malay and indian restaurant. It's really quite a different experience! the atmosphere is different and the food is quite good! anyway, we were really quite full. I was the one whose the least full. hahaha...

yeah, so i took a break. anyway, here are some photos!

alva alto exibition





and random pics from us!




that's abt it! god bless!

2 more weeks to chirstmas holidays

2 more weeks of craziness to chirstmas holidays. Looking forward to it really. I need a break, to laugh smile and hold my dear ones close especially one particular guy. I miss him.^^ Anyway, i hope you like the new song1 it's nice and jazzy and not too bombastic for this blog. Uber cool!

Ahhhhh.... I need to focus on my design project(sick of this word but can't find other words)!

HURRY CHIRSTMAS HURRY!

>:

I am just writing my frustration down and so pls don't bring this up. i dun need to talk about it or more like don't want to and i DUN wan any sympathy.

I haven't seen an F for a very long tme until recently. nowi got an F in IT. like ****. Y am i taking this so seriously because I want to move on, not to be retained or kicked out. when I saw this result, memories of last year came back to me. The agony of always failing, the agony of fear over my results, the disappointment of my parents. I really feel very ****** up.

I cannot continue like this. I must buck up and get rid of all this. I don't want to ruin my life, depend on my parents throughout my life. One *********** year is enough. I swore last year i will never burden my family. I have to improve. No matter what it takes.

a very so-called break

I won't say that this is not a break and I won't say that this is the time to relax. As long as my course is still up and running everyday, i find it hard to really become a couch potato or to really relax like it's a holiday. In a way, it is good of course. But i am feeling much better... way much better. I think.

Last Sat, i went out with Faz to watch a movie, Bewolf. It is not really bad. I just don't like the scary part of a deformed human, and man being eaten. I also hate the nude bodies in the movies. Not that I am rigid about moral values, it is just that the full blown sight irks me >.<.

Ever since friday (crazy day) night, I have been lazing until now. But i stopped this laziness few mins ago and I am going to touch my work again.

Anyway, nothing much really happened but here r some photos that Faz and I took.







P.S sorry for the blur pics

frustration boiling

I dunno what I should feel. Should i feel indifferent or angry or frustrated? I bet it''s frustration. frustration over ot knowing what to do, frustration of not doing things right, frustration on how things are not going my way. I cannot stand it. Why does it have to happen to me?!?

I didn't sleep for 44 hours, worked like crap on one model and it still doesn't show my concept. Argh! grrrrrr.....

If i say i hate it, it will only be demoralising. But what to do? How brain how?!? jus work for once for pete's sake.

Argh! I pray and hope my crit is not on friday, i have a very bad feeling that it would be.

>.<

happy deepavali!

HAPPY DEEPAVALI to the people out there! Hope u have fun!
I am still feeling the impact of sleeping one full night. I didn't sleep for the past 3 days. Actually I intended to sleep for 1 hour yesterday before going back to my work. Turns out that I slept for 5 hours, from 8pm to 1 am. Then before i get to touch my laptop, my mom forced me to sleep. Said something about mumbling in your sleep is not very good.

As usual, I stll didn't get very good comments in my design so i have to rethink my ideas. Thought of new ideas, hopefully more will come out. Feeling abit sleepy but hey, at least i had some sleep... hahaha....

Sheesh.... if there's one thing i will never do, it will be telling my mom to read this blog. It's bad enough to see her sometimes listening to my conversation on the phone. letting her see my personal thoughts will be downright creepy.

Anyway, I will be going out to see one of the lecturer's office with my friends. quite cool!

here's some of the not very good pics of my model:

exterior:


interior:

AHHHH....

AHHHH...how to do my model? My sprained hand is aching and i have to lean on it,O.O