tired..... emotionally

Although I may be relieved to stay in school, but really, sometimes, I feel like just throwing in that towel. But to do that, I am giving up without a fight. There is only failure if no attempt is made. But I am so tired. Really.... I feel stressed, I feel miserable like an awful fool. Like what the ***. Things that I had done, is not good enough. I hate being in the special attention of any teacher's eye. I hate being brought into view most of the time. It is not really about my self esteem, but I really can do without that too much extra attention. ARGH!

Still.... I can't give up yet. I mustn't. I got the potential. I know I do. I can't ruin this chance. It's up to them to see it. As for now, there's only one person I got to prove....................................me...