well... so let's say it's a new beggining

Well... so let's say it's a new beginnig. But first, before I start on that, I have to say my grandma (nai nai) has went on to a new journey out of this world. To be honest, it does affect me but not too much. After seeing her with tubes and bedridden for the past few years, it's really heartwenching enough. I still remember the first time I saw her, I almost cryed. But now, she don't have to suffer anymore. From what I had learned recently, actually nai nai really loves me a lot. My uncles and aunties told me how she always talked about me. I guess in some part of me, there's regret, because I could have done something really nice for her and see her smile for that one special time. But generally, I am really happy that she don't have to suffer anymore and she had gone to a much better place. God bless nai nai and may she rest in peace.

Ok... so now, the decision is decided. I will be studying interior design. Maybe it will be fun. I don't know. I guess just somehow, I don't know where I stand anymore. But I have to make sure that I change to see the otside world. Maybe there's something beautiful in it. I have to see for myself.

To be honest, I don't know why, but some part in my heart, I feel happy that I left MI. But some small part in me, do miss it. Why am I such a complex person? I feel a little dot dot.

Anyway, I hope Jamie will be able to get what she wants. She is really nice, being there for me when I need someone to talk to even when she hs her own problems. I wouldn't mind if I can do something for her if I can help her out.

Anyway, That's about it for now. Mata Ja. Ciao!

poly.... O.O

Hey! It’s been a while since I have written an entry. I guess I didn’t have much time. Now I do have a teeny bit of time. So I should write my very complicated feelings down. I dun think I will continue in MI. Most likely I will be going to polytechnic. What I fear most is that I make the wrong choice or getting the choice that may not be to my desire. I guess early childhood is more of me than mass com… can you believe that? Friends who had been close to me will be missed dearly. Still, this route may be better for me. Now all I want to do is become a better person and focus on the life that is set forth of me. I leave these things in God’s hand. Hope this turns out ok.