wad happened the past few days

Well, on sat night, we had dinner with my uncle who came back from NZ and will be going back there again somewhere in next week or this week. The chinese dinner was really good especially the appetizers, toufu and dessert. Hahaha... I wish i brought my camera along.

Then we went to a bar and played pool in the clubhouse called legion. It was really cool. I had a drink called Sex On The Beach. It was really yummy. Quite fruity and sweet. And i learned how to play pool properly. Hahaha... FUN....

Other than that, life is pretty normal We have e-learning week this week. That means I can catch up with my thoughts and what I want to do. Hahaha... Hope i can get things done in advance.

Today had TKD (aka tekuando), I found how much my stamina lack and somehow i overexerted myself and couldn't breathe. I feel really embarassed and guilty. But I really thanks the people who show concern to me. Thanks a lot. Other than that, I don;t want to talk about it.

So yeah, Better catch up with my hmwk and catch up with God as well. It's time to come back to him and thank him for all these blessings.

That's about it! God bless!

e-learning week

Yesterday was really a relief. After a week full of work and everything, somehow having no sleep is not really an option... hahaha... But overall it's quite fun. Yesterday, i thought the lecturer will frown on my work, so horrible looking, but somehow she didn't. hahaha... Then we saw her cry when she tried to explain to us what it is to truly design. Kind of shows that she is quite concern for us and she is really true to design.


Psychology lesson was really fun. With all the skits and presentation. Most of the skits are quite funny. If I weren't hapf dead, I could have laughed more. Guess what, I was asked to act like a flirt yesterday. I think it's quite wierd though..hahaha... but it is funny.

Then the same personal matter pops up again and I felt my heart trown somewhere far off that I can barely reached it. I only knew that I was panioking inside and I am trying to think about it. There are friends who were there for me yesterday. Thanks you all.

While I still am very very worried over that matter, I will still say that overall, yesterday was ok. There's good times and bad times. Guess, I just have to learn how to take this matter.

hmmm

Don't ask me why.... I just find this video is rather inspirational.. it's a bit angsty... But yeah, it's good to stand again and run again.

PRESS ESC IF YOU WANT TO OFF SONG!

resilience

hahaha... I got inspired by a piano song. So i wrote this poem randomly. There's quote that says, "I will try again tomorow". Even if i were to fail anf fail, I have to keep trying. Because I want to make something out of myself. To be someone who have somethingi unique in the world that the world don't have.

Giving great thought,
To sense of resilience,
Like a great spell cast against me,
I wonder what I will be,
To be good in the things I want to do?
Or just watch it collapse against my clumsy fingers?
If insecurities are there to suffocate,
I pray that I am not the victim.
But everything needs attempt yes?
If there were never mistakes,
Never never could I learn.

good news and not so good news

The critique was quite a relief really.... since I have expected worse. But it does gives me the sense of needing to improve. Especially my aesthetic sense. I don't think I am really myself today, but i can't help it -.- . Anyway, although i had fun messing around with facebook, I still hate being one of the last few to present. It's justt too stressful. But oh well, it's over. So it is time for a hot chocolate and some rest before I begin working again.^^

Guess wad? I passed my grade 8 piano exam! WHOOT!

alive kicking

You know, there's a local term for how i feel now. It's called "kick dao shuang".... In orther words, after my CCA today, I feel really refresh. I don't know why. I just do. Actually today,i feel a little disheartned and angsty but i guess maybe i shouldn't hub over my failure so much.

Now all i want is to get fresh ideas so i don't have to be so lost. Maybe i should go to the CCA more often. and not spend too much time in my work. If not, maybe we will just feel burned out by the work we do. So yeah, i should just go out for a walk or exercise with a group of friends next time. ^^

that's about it today!Feels good to kick those bad feelings away.

cool fun break

Finally i can afford a break to the hectic confused week! Went out with Liang hao and watched a movie called "balls of fury" and then went shopping over some stuff. Hahaha.... It's been so long since I went out with him. It's really really cool! hahaha..... I get to try some hats!!! Too bad i got no camera to take them. For some reason, hats became really interesting to me. It's like something fancinating to try on. Hahaha.... So today was not too bad. In fact, it's good to take a break once a while. Let me feel refreshed!^^ Well... that's about it today. Here's one groovy babe whom i found really cool! PRESS ESC IF U WANT TO SWITCH OFF SONG!

-.-

th emost frustrating to think of now is losing the flow of my thinking. It was going great jus now until one particular moment. I don't know whether I should just act frustrated. Imagine trying to keep yourself awake even though you took a nap in the afternoon and finally get the flow of the thinking and it stopped all of a sudden. Darn emotions. It's really really frustrating.

takes coffee and get a grip

That's it. I am not going to dwell in this stupid meaningless swirling of emotions and getting lost in it and ecoming cluttered after that. I am getting a grip and HE better msg by tmw if not I am not going to be very happy. So starting from now, I am so going to pick myself up and do this work! *rah*

motivated

It's been a week of swirling emotions. Most of the days spent cracking my brain to come up with a relevant concept for my project. Finally come up with "Graceful Sense of Balance" by wednesday. But then, after that, I have to create two more concept models and 1 study model by friday. I only started on thursday. So by thursday night, I had experience a big hugwe topedo of emotions. First I was emo, then I had brain spasm which means I was laughing quite out of no reason. Guess it must be my body's way to destress. After that, I got emo again and I became agitated becoz my friend said sth that frightens me. So many emotions in one night. I think my brain had a short circuit after that. Because I couldn't think anymore. I Anyhow did my study model and it became an AQUARIUM!!!! Horrible. I am supposed to create a gathering room, not an AQUARIUM! So after a very good night odf rest. I will be redoing my model, hopefully by today and tmw I will start on my second model. Must jia you! But this time I am not going to push myself so hard that I can't breathe.

Here's some of the work I have done.

My mood boards

1st mood board
vitality


2nd mood board
graceful sense of balance


my concept models






my study model

anyhow done

VENT VENT!

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
I feel so so..... argh! 8 hours of racking brain last night with sleep stocked away very redundantly! 2 days and 8 hours of ******** thinking of the concept and also finally thinking that it's the right one and they just took 1 min to hear about it, and 1 sec to say IT"S A NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO NO NO NO NO!

Rah! Okay! After this ranting, i better calm down! I feel so frustrated. Like how? It makes me feel I am so.... brainless. What am I going to do now? Sigh! I have to keep pushing forward no matter what!

Anyway, the second concept I came up with is "Beyond The Realm". I thought it's poetic and it is unique to the chinese acrobats but it turn out to be too general. They said I am too ambitious. Maybe I should relax a bit and look again! I DON"T KNOW! But I HAVE TO TRY! Anyway, here's my cocept model for beyond the realm.




wish me luck! T.T

ARGH!

It's been days and I have yet to comeup with a good concept! At first I chose 'vitality' but aftr showing the lecturersmy concept, they said it's wrong because of it being too "loose"! Hope I get the concept soon!!