hols

Ok... this is ther first hols that i really have nothing to do and i really really am not used to it. But then, again, i will be speaking the total opposite when i start working.

To be honest, all i want now is to know if i can make it to 2nd year. that's all i want.

But that aside, i also have a fun time. Last Sat, went to plaza sing and esplanade with Alice, Anglia and Sharon. It's pretty cool. I had the pleasure of shouting over the rooftop of esplanade. Somehow i got the impression that the guy near me thinks i am crazy. He gave me that "look" >.<. Hahaha... but it's quite fun actually. =P









Then i went swimming with my best firned, madeleine yesterday. I have thinned down a bit. That's pretty good. It was my first time going to jurong east pool. I looove the wave pool! it's so fun. Of cuz i came back with sun kissed cheeks and nose, but it's so very fun. But something not so good happened last night. I wish i can hug her.

Life does have lemons i guess, but i shouldn't forget the yummy cherries and mangoes... hahaha... but of cuz, words are easier said than done.

i dunno wad to say... it's over?

hmmm... It's over? The project is done and submitted and marks have been taken down. But to be honest, i know i ought to feel relaxed and happy. But i have these groundless fear of not being able to pass. So i am writing this down for some relief. But pls do not bring this topic up. It's not meant for people to give me encouragement and assurances which seems to very assured.-.-... sorry! it's just that i trat this blog as a way to broadcast the feelings of me. Of course there will be certain secrets but there will be these things in general.

Anyway, there's a movie that tug my heart. 881... I thought i won;t like it but it left me having affections for this movie and how people live. Dremas to be fulfilled, people to cherish, the importance of money, preserving the culture and so many things. But i really really found it touching and nice to watch. It's not like the other films, depressing and having a uncertain end that makes me go huh? The show is like having precious and happy moments and cherishing those faithful moments. There's also a certain humor in them and how people smile and be strong when they come to trouble.

I hope that I will be able to be trong and alays stand when i fall. Never give up and have a smile that brightens the day. hmmm... somehow the show took sentimental thoughts out of me. Hahahaha...

Yeah, but anyway, the show is nice.

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HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!

Happy new year everybody and god bless! I hope that all your wishes come true and that you will be healthy and happy.

To be honest, quite a lot of things happened in 2007. First, it's my transfer from MI to SP.

Honestly, i was near depression duing that period of time before i decide to go to SP. I guess it's therealization of who I am and my flaws. But i dd somehow have a "new life" when i came to SP. I didn't regret withdrawing from MI, not at all.


Quitting the school is quite risky especially when i do not have a place in poly to go. But, thanks God that I really did got in. Anyway, it's not because i regretted joining MI, NEVER. I just don't fit in there. I am thankful for being in there. It's like a wake up call.

I guess i did change a bit. But i think it's not enough. I mean I don't want to change my entire self, i just want to be able to THINK for myself. instead of depending on the others.

It's not bad or anything, but i believe it's good to be independent. Because the one who can truly affect the future is myself. BUT! haha... it's easier said than done. But still, i really aprreciate my friends who are always there for me, giving me advice and tolerating my nonsense. I really appreciate it alot!^^

Anyway, I had some relationship problems this year. It's not surprising but it does hurts. It's somehow predicted by my feeling i guess. But after talking it out and compromising and finding ways to solve it, it's much better.

Then my grandmas had passed on. Not one but two, on both sides. Honestlt, i was scared when i first experience mama's (my dad's side) funeral. Guess i had not been to a funeral for a very long time. The second time, it's not too bad. But it's still sad. Reall sad. Both of them cared for me, both of them really loved me. My aunt told me about m grandma on dad's side. She always talked about me. Always smiled when i visit her. Haha... I can still remember how she would sit by my side while i draw. then there por por (my mom's side. she always cared for me when my parents are not home. Pet me to sleep when i got out of bed at night when i am yound. I guess i am closer to her because i get to see her often. I really cried a lot when she died. But I know boh of them are happy and resting.^^

Also, there's my first year in Interior Design. Hundreds of sleepless nights and late nights, working working working. There's frustration, I was tired and grumpy. But a brand new experience. I felt that i can appreciate art. I really want to be like i was in the beginning, eaer to learn, full of passion. So much fun. But at the 2nd semester, i wasa zombie for 2-4 months i think. But to be honest, I think i didn't feel depressed throughout the thing. I can still smile, i can still laugh, i don't have to cheer myself up every night. Also, i was too tired and busy to be depressed a thing. Took me two weeks away from the project to become myself again.

I learnt about psychology too! It's really fun! But to be honest, the information in the book is so elementary. Wish there's more. But yeah, i guess i did change a little. But it's progress!^^ Let it continue.

My resolution is to manage my time,lose weight and believe in myself. I think.


Anyway, Happy new year to you people out there. God bless and may your wishes come true!