procastinating and happy moments

hahaha... sorry.. it happened during the project and i was busy... so here's wad happened. it was hot the past few days with bright sun and clear skies. and sooo.. who got the mood to do hmwk right? so here's the stuff we did in school^^!

2 weeks ago on wed



















we went to eat macflurry.
had sugar rush!
omg... i had gain so much kg!!! good thing i thinned down again.

and then on thurs two weeks ago, we had picnic at moberly with the big huu-has over sok hui with her first time eating blueberry pockies. SHE'S SO CUTE!^^



















and then sice we only shared a plate of fried stuff for lunch, we became hungry again so we had dinner. The trill of sliding down the staircase railing was irresistable, sooooooo we influenced alice and jamie to slide down the stairs.



alice is interesting. try saying it's so DANGEROUS while u slide down. *wheeeee*

















and after that.*plays star wars tune*




we had jamie and alice's duel. Dunno who won though. I think i was doing my work.














yup^^! and then fri we had site visit. it is interesting! i shall upload the pics *later*

and thennnnnn last mon, we had....



























after submission yesterday *WHOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO! punches in the air* we celebrated by going to ice creamery. u know, it's the first time, i was not freaking out before submission, i was playing uno with anglia, Jonathan and Sok Hui^^!

and we played uno again in island creamery. may diff version of it, heart attack, goldfish, uno, grab the ice cream sticks. so fun^^! btw, i fell in love with the nutella ice cream there^^!




















we also had our own name card^^! btw we posted our pic there in island creamery!^^ it's so funnn^^!



















shhhhhhhhhh.... the beauty of friendship. feeling really blessed! thanks for all the great moment guys. Let's have somemore... looking forward to it!!!!!!

OOOOOOOOOOOH YEEEEAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHH! i fell in love with this band, CLAZZIQUAI! (e fantastico, bravo!)

It's a jazzy tune with a unique mix of korean and english. OMG, it's so nice!! absolutely yummy^^! hope u love my background song!! found it from a great singer in youtube, http://www.youtube.com/user/yunfengfu.^^! hope u like it^^!


god bless!
mata! ja!
ciao^^!

ahhhhh (relieved a little)...

You have no idea how this tiny little bit of relief feels like. but finally a little break. the song is so AWFULLY...... CUTEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE! *_* melts! hope u like it^^!



gotta go! hope u like it^^!
god bless^^!

workload went whoa!

damn! >.< i feel like crap now. Sorry, my mood went from determined to foul to i don't know what it is.

Not complaining, i love my work. i really really do LOVE it. It's the first project where i can finally see improvments in myself and everything. I even learn to think clearer while i worked. But damn, my body is exhausted. and also i wonder if i think my work correctly. Got to ask again!

Hmmm... it's the first time i actually had hystericals while i sleep. NOTE: i was NOT aware when i went into hysteria. From what my parents said, my body started to shake after they wake me up and i started screaming at them when they tried to wake me up after my one hour nap.

That's really.... scary!

The funny thing is this. I used to be this lazy dreamy bum who don't do work and dream all day and practically hate studying. Now i am this person who works through the night without an sleep and i still love what i m doing. Crazy la... but I will say it's worth it.

SIGH! Got to go do work again! seeya!

my life, my responsibility

i guess everyone has their own insecurities. Sometimes i do get selfsh or sometimes arrogant and judgemental. SHouldn't e that way right? I just felt that way today. And everytime i am faced with this insecurities, i feel like running to someone who i take for granted for a very long time.

So there's this quiet promise to myself again and i am not going t mention it. Sometimes, when u find that something's wrong, you have to look into yrself first and not crush yourself. I want to follow this promise and i am not going to do the same things again!>.<

p.s. sorry, this is not for discussion, it's to remind myself... so it is kind of out of topic >.<... sorry!

quiz

anglia tagged me soooo i shall do this quiz.

1) At what age do you wish to marry?
hmmm... i m not sure in this life time.

2) What do you want the most now?
my HEALTH BACK!!!

3) Who is the person you trust the most?
um... i dunno?

4) Do you think you have enough confidence?
If there's such thing as enough confidence,
people will be strutting on the streets yelling how great they are.

5) If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
To be able to do sth i love as a job^^!

6) Do you believe in seeing the rainbow after the rain?
Rainbow? I remember seeing a rainbow just right outside my window^^!

7) What are you afraid to lose the most right now?
my Brain.

8) Do you believe in eternal love?
ooooh... romeo romeo.. how i luvvvvvv thee!

9) If you meet someone you love, would you confess to him/her?
I don't think i am THAT direct.

10) List out 3 good points of the person who tagged you
Gentle, calm, hidden craziness (whitles innocently)

11) What are the requirements that you wish from the other half?
someone I can go along with?

12) What type of person do you hate the most?
someone with no respect for anybody! DX

13) Do you cherish every friendship of yours?
Yes! They are really precious to me XD!

14) Do you believe in god?
yes! I m a catholic!

15) What do you think is the most important thing in your life?
Love. Nobody can do without it.

16) Do you find it a need for you to have a boyfriend?
I have one! but i dun need him to be with me 24 hrs everyday.

17) At this point of time,would you rather be a heartbreaker or heartbroken?
ummmm.... neither?

18) What kind of friend do you hope to be in your friends' eyes?

someone who can feel comfortable with^^!

19) Describe the person who tagged you in 6 words
she is my morning sunshine gal^^!!

20) The place you wanted to go most with your loved ones
Japan, Europe and new Zealand^^!

People I tagged:
Sherie
Madeleine
Wei qian
Ying Zhuang
Guo Shu^^

worth it

well... There are two words that appear in my mind for this week : rush and sick.

Yesh... as how i complained in my previous entry, i am sick this week and have been having giddy spells. But then again, it's my fault because i will stay up late at night to do my project. Ir's quite fun and also quite... frustrating. I guess i jus wated t learn and try new things!

Anyway, about the rushig part, my friends ran a lot. First time for some who ran across the campus. Then we ran again to help a friend pin up her things before the submission time closed. Also a lot of thinga. I can't rmb...

then on friday, went to raffles place for GEMS. I found out taking pictures actually make u more observant. I really had fun. I bet there are people who find me crazy though. Snapping pics for nothing.

But yeah,after all the perservaering from the stupid sickness and the rushing, i was told by my lecturer that I have great improvement. And you know what makes us really happy? WE GOT THE WEEKEND OFF!!!! WHOOOO!

anyway, here are some pics that's taken..



here's my project for this term







Here's some pics i took. (very few pics of the many pics i took)

yup^^! that's about it! i had fun. esp this week^^! we even did our work on the mrt XD! (i jus dun wan to load that pic ucz i look horrible in it)

god bless^^! mata! ja^^!

sick

Argh! i have been sick since sunday. But monday was really the worst, all the sickness comes attacking me and i m actually dealing with 3 sicknesses (sore throat, running nose, fever) while i work through my model. Of cuz it's a vain attempt to work but argh! i have to!

Today, went to school with a raw throat and a big huge coughing fit. So basically my day is a coughing day. You have no idea how frustrating it is. But i really want to thank those people who asked me to take care andshow acts of concern12 i really appreciate it!^^

Right now, it's kind of sucky cuz medicine makes me drowsy and i took a nap. Now that i m awake, i amfeeling worse! argh! but anyway, better than yesterday. at least i don't have that same burning, unbreathable sensation like yesterday. Hope i get well soon^^~

Once again, thank you to all those who show me concern, i really appreciate and really happy that you care about me^^. Thanks^^!

hmmmm

no matter how i try to change, it seems hard. nevertheless, i still have to keep trying.

About this week, it's not too bad! having submission next week gives a tiny eensy bit of breathing space.

tue, had way a lot of injuries from sparring but anyway, sparring rox!! jus that i need to be confident on myself.

Wed, had preparation camp for tkd FO camp. Had a ghost story but i shall not talk about it. We had to prepare for the night walk and it's quite fun except it's a hot summer night and the tunnel my group were stationed in, is dark and not very ventilated @_@.

Thurs, left camp early, had lunch at thai express with my couple of friends and the food is really MMMPH.. GOOD!! I love the sweet tofu rice i ate and i love the dessert. Shall treat my mom there for mother's day (not sure if it's over yet).

Fri, nothing much, came home, work on project and had no mood to do so i dragged it no thanks to my thinking so much.

anyway, things have been confusing lately. I just feel confused about the project, not sure AGAIN!!! i m going to clear my mind by going to see the project brief again. Shadows has been looming in the studio lately. No thanks to my not having to sit among my friends, i have no idea wad's going on. and yes, there are things again which disturbed me which is not very good. My mom told me i m so soft hearted, so naturally certain people get drawn to me. But i don't think i m soft hearted at all... If i am... then i think it's time to draw the line for myself. ARGH! anyway, going back to my work and hopefully i can work through some things!

God bless!
MAta ja!

quizzyZzz

super tired for this past 5 days. so i shall update abt the week tmw or sth. but for now. here's some fun stuff i took.

Cooool! i am vanilla ice-cream.



COFFEE!!



i love morning, but i can't wake up-.-



wheeeee!@_@

school is starting! nuuoooooo!

nuoooo! school is starting tmw!!! so i shall post today!

hmmm... holidays didn'r really zoomed past that i was dizzy but i did learnt a lot and probably change a little.(i think)-.-,,, but it's quite ok! at least i m doing sth right? Work and do stuff i always wanted to do. I baked (checked), cooked (checked), sketch (checked) and read a tit bit (so not checked). MUST READ MORE!!!!!!!!Oh yeah! and worked (checked) other than that i think this hols is one of the fruitful ones and I made new friends^^. Thanks god for that^^!

As for today, i cooked by myself and made my first ever soup, carrot soup!! but it's really easy to make really-.-... sth like home economics class BUT it's still a accomplishment. Anyway, not here to brag about my "accomplishment", jus writing down to note that i am on the road to becoming independant and less lazy (or so i think... my stuff is like in a mess).

Then, met Xuan Wen (met old friends... checked!) for dinner and had a long chat. It's been so long since i seen her!!! so happy to see her again^^!

Anyway, i have to follow my resolutions this year and i must have more self discipline>.<. Pray to God to guide me along the way^^!

But i shall not say abt my resolution here until i finally did it, soooo when i do, i shall write. and I hope that my strenghts and my unique side will nv go away^^.

But yeah! at least i did most of the things i wanted to do! must jia you this year and more the next year! jia you jia you!!^^

here's my first ever carrot soup!

stayover + first time cook up

hmmmmm.... On wed, decided to go to madeleine's house to teach her piano. Then, we went to eat pineapple rice^^!! (IT'S LIKE SUPER YUMMY!!) The place was at Jurong Point. Then madeleine decides to hang out at my house and have a stayover. It's a last min thing^^!

So we set off to my house and then we were chatting about a certain someone (i shall mention who^^). Once we reached my house, we had a chat with my mom and then we went to my room. Madeleine took a look at some of my magazines and she was telling me what kind of house she wanted. I was telling her she needs to be a tai tai, looking at the furniture. It's something like the furniture brand, Da Vinci. That ever expensive grand furniture.^^ but it was quite fun how people's dream homes are like^^!

Most unfortunately on that wednesday night, Madeleine was not feeling so good and she was also feeling a little hungry. So had made hot cup noodles for her and got her to drink a lot of water. And then i was thinking of making omelete the next day. You know what happened? i dreamt abt drinking egg yoke from the bottle.... argh! At least madeleine was better the next morning.

On thurs in the morning, took madeleine out for a walk. Showed her the wonderful views whch lucky me gets to see and then we went to cold storage to get groceries in our pyjamas-.-... BUT it was fun^^!!!=P

Then we had our first cook off!^^ we made rice with a message^^! Cool nia^^!Basically it's fried rice with a big huge omelete covering it. The message is on top^^! Our first cook off was a success. But it's also thanks to my maid, supa for helping us out^^! It was a little funny cuz we invented 2 logos^^! one of them is "big food, big quantity, big mouth!" (trademark of a certain someone) and the other is "You have to eat it whether you like it or not^^"(mine).

But it was quite a success and madeleine really likes it a lot^^! She looks so happy^^! hahaha^^! i shared with him when i came over to his house^^! not too bad^^!hahaha^^! so fun^^! i hope to cook again^^! maybe tmw^^!

here's some of the pics i took off after the cook off.

presenting Rice with a message^^!

stars

hmmm! i don't know if i m blessed but i think i m^^!


Yesterday went out the entire day, had lunch at pasta mania and dessert at swensens with edmund and Darren. Put two interesting and intelligent people together and you probably get an interesting conversation^^!

Then went out with Wei Qian for the first time to play arcade. Hahaha^^.... it was weird playing EDR cuz both of us were wearing skirt^^!

Then had a great thank you dinner with the tkd gang! It was really fun but once again, the skirt is a hindrance so i can't really play much and i feel weird because i m not in my dressing style!!

But here's something interesting, I saw a shooting star yesterday on my way home. It was fast but it's really... WOW!!! sadly, i had all the sadistic thoughts in my mind and thought negative stuff. But cool! the first time i saw a shooting star^^!

Today, spend 5 HOURS!!!! baking with Sharon on penut butter cookies and fruit tarts!!! But i decide to call the tart crust as cookie tart. Y? somple, the crust has the same exact texture and hardness like a cookie. But it's cool!! my first time making tarts!!!

Somehow, ever since i wanted to look more and observe more, I saw more things. I saw an orion belt (STARS!!) one rectangle with 3 stars in a row inside!) in the velvet sky today!^^It's another WOW! That adds up to the booya of my past two days and i m really super lucky to see them^^!

hahaha! i guess that's abt it for today^^!

See ya and god bless^^!

outing at night

Hmmm... let's update for yesterday and today k? I went out wih madeleine, my first love =P. Hahaha.... oppsie=P. But yup, went with her out to the hairdressor to get my hair done. We had to wait like about 2-3 hours for my turn. Long right?

After that, went out with madeleine, Justin and Sherman for dinner. Each of the guys have their own cars so basically, madeleine sat with justin and I sat in Sherman's car. But before dinner, we had to wait for Justin in Kallang macdonalds, there went one hour until he comes. By that time, i think it's like 8:30 pm. Should be-.-... After that we went to Beach road to it. Sherman was like "huh?" first before he found the place. We had to follow justin's car.

The restaurant is not too bad^^! hmm... the food is quite good. It's quite old fashioned but that's wad make the mood^^! Anyway. after that i had to go home partly because my parents were way too anxious for their own good. ( If they are this panicky now at this hour, i wonder how panicky they will be if i EVER were to go clubbing). Oh well... all the parent's concern! (impatience impatience)

But yeah, madeleine was not feeling so good, so i was a little concerned for her. Good thing she reached home safely.(if not, Justin... you are going to get it from me BIG TIME). And i m really glad that she had fun before she came home^^!

I had to leave earlier and so by the time i reached home it's like 11pm. I wished mom would stop worrying. *tsk* sigh.. oh well! that's abt it for yesterday.

Today, i went out to west coast park with fiaz and alvin. They are fun to be around with. (duh! my bf is there!) But there are hiccups along the way. Oh well, today may not be my day, but i do enjoy our time tgt. But next time, i think i will go on a solo date, guess i miss that too much!

That's abt it. Sorry, no pics. No cam no pics^^!

mata ja! god bless!

maturing? or changing?

I notice after i work, there's a feeling that i have changed or matured. I don't know. But i know it is something big. I don't feel myself right now, I don't feel like i m talking like how i m used to be. I think Alvin can also feel the same.

It's darn weird and I don't know why. But i don't like the feeling. It's not the feeling of acheivement, it's the feeling of something's wrong here. My heart feels as though it's crying and missing someone and my brain is thrown somewhere that it feels disoriented now. Or maybe... because of tha martinin i drank yesterday.

I don't what's up with me, but i think i shall go figure it out pretty soon and solve whatever problem there seems to be popping up>.<.

But anyway, I really thank god for everything. He gave me so much. So much more than anyone. Gave me so much love and was with me throughout the entire life. I wonder what the future holds for me. But i know God is behind me all th way.

Drink. Talk. Relax

WHOOHOO!!!! yesterday was my last day of wirk!!!!! it feels so good! WHOOHOOO!!

Yeah.. but anyway, went out in the evening with Darren. Yay! i bought a bangle and a black dress at far east plaza!^^ Love the dress!! Don't think i will spend that much on clothes since i got what i wanted. The chicken rice at far east plaza is also really good!! plus one more bonus point! it's cheap!^^

Also had to dress up today. I jus feel more comfy to wear smart casual in a pub rather than jus shirt and jeans. Not too bad^^! Also went to see the opera gallery. Learnt a lot of things about art! Thanks to Darren! Look through some art stuff. I f i were to say which is my fav... hmmm.. it will be the painting of the reflections on the water. I want to learn more!!

I drank Matini with him and chat through the night. Listened to a filipino band. The spring rolls are good and the interior is nice^^! love it!^^

ANyway, Here's some of the pics^^!







Drinks: appletino (darren), lycheetini(mine)

That's abt it 4 today^^! cya^^!

The lady

To the lady,
of fa la so,
thy heart has gathered thyself,
my gracious has become stronger,
your tears, the pleasing ointment nutured the seed,

thy tree had grown,
but it will keep growing,
fear not for it's change

my dear,scare for not,
for thy hope is there,
the future will change,
good or bad,

hold on and see,
because thy hope is there,
for you to see the beauty.

Tuesday with Morris

If there's one book that makes tears in my eyes, it's tuesday with Morries. At first reading the book left many questions in my mind and I really admire the man named Moorris. He's a compassionate old guy who will joke and laugh even if he was in his death bed.

But there's always these messages repeting and always repeating. Looks, money, materials and jobs, are they eally important? Or are the relationships between people more important. There are always times where people (including myself) take relationships for granted.

Until when it's the time on our death beds where we start to regret. But what Morris said that once u accept death, u start grasping important things in your life.

That book has so many philisopies until my head got buried in the book and i m now slowly digging my way out. But it held so many things so true.

Such a small book left so many questions in me. But while i was running to get my head clear again, I find that instead of wanting to be someone like Morris, I will lead my own life and my own way. While his view of life is really remarkable and i really admire it a lot, but i wan to do things my own way but for the same thing, to look at the most important things of your life.

hee hee^^! i must be a sap but it's a good sap^^!!! oh well... my mind is still cluded by it but it's really meaningful^^!

Got to go and scoop eleanors mind up before she goes HUH? again. cya!

my special story

In tribute of winning the fat dream contest's consolation prize. I m once again posting my story in this blog^^!

THAT BOY NAMED JACK

Good day to you all. I am rocky 911. Do not mind my poor appearance of an old ragged soft toy or my strange name. Perhaps I am still cute in your eyes like what a teddy bear is meant to be. But today, I am not going to talk about myself but instead, of this young lad whom I found rather fascinating. He got me when he was a mere four or five years old and I became his best buddy. That young boy was named Jack.

You see, Jack was not really good looking and neither was he really thin. He was rather plump really and had such a queer attitude. No doubt he got his nickname, “The Fat Weirdo”. He had strange little speeches like wanting to dream fat. Usually people would say they would want to dream big. However, in his case, he wanted to dream fat. I was thinking that he should be saying that he had a fat dream. Many people told him that. His parents, his teachers and his taunting classmates corrected him many times. Why would he shake his head so vigorously and say “NO!”?

Then later, I would hear him muttering, “They don’t understand.” Maybe it was because he loved to eat. I did not really understand what he meant by dreaming fat until he explained them to me. However, he told me to keep it a secret which I had kept until now. So what was his fat dream? He wanted to become someone people could believe in, like Oprah Winfrey. It could be any job, a chef, an actor, anything. So why did he say “I want to dream fat” and not “big”? We should see this in the later part of my telling.

I saw Jack grow up. Not really alone, he had a few precious friends who understood him. I saw him slowly eating the pain of being called an underdog and a useless brat. I saw him eating away rather deliciously over the good times he had. I saw Jack slowly cooking a plot and ate that plot to see if it really tasted good. Many times he would wince painfully and swallow rather reluctantly or he would rub his stomach and lick his lips. I saw him tried new recipes of many different styles like gardening or sewing. Basically, anything he could get his hands on. Sometimes I had seen him trim down sadly and sometimes I had seen him getting fatter, full of pride. But after all those times of eating, I had seen him go higher and higher up the ladder of success, refusing to give up in every step he made. When at last he found what he wanted to do, I saw him swell not with pride but the happiness of all those times. Jack became a chef who cooked wondrous meals for the rich and gave nutritious food for the poor. Maybe he could not make a large scale of people believe in him immediately, but slowly and surely, he would with every bite that he took.

I remember how he explained to me about dreaming fat. You see, dreaming big could have some errors in it. A dream may seem to be big on the outside but has nothing inside. Having a fat dream did not really mean you will accomplish it. It was just like having a fat dream. However, to dream fat, there is substance in it. Everything that you had gone through, everything that you took in is what makes you today. When Jack said that he wanted to dream fat, it was because he wanted the dream to come true. Strange isn’t it? That such a small child that he was had thought about it that way.

There was a girlfriend that Jack brought over one day. She brought a little friend along. That friend was a cute little soft toy bunny called Chaddy. She was really a nice sweet gentle creature. Chaddy asked me once,” Jack is a really nice guy, but don’t you think he is a little fat?”

And I replied to the very confused bunny,” Nah… His dream is fatter.”


I hope you like it^^!

hmmmm!

Really bored now so listened to some music. If you ask me what moment i have been thinking of, it will be just listening to a song, sit by the window,drinking milo or hot chocolate. Today is not bad. Went to have lunch with my relatives. How strange. Why is it everytime when i want to connect myself to my cousins they are not there?

Hahaha... but oh well! hahahaha! next time, I will try even harder to connect with them and overcome my shyness^^!

Btw, i just cut my hair. It looks cute and quite fresh! Not too bad! I liiiike! I don't know why the sudden change of mindset, maybe it's the feeling of wanting to try something new but I feel like highlighting my hair. But the thing is I spent a lot of effort making my hair lustous black, wouldn't it be a waste to just highlight them? Argh! Wishy-washy! I will probably wash away the decision again when the time comes!

yeah! But i feel bored now! gotta look for sth fun before work starts tmw-.-...

cys!

whoohoo!

Do yu know wad's the most amazing thing for tonight?

I won a consolation priza for a writing competition. But ok la. Actually i enjoy writing it more than wanting a prize for it. I really like the stories i created. But yes, thanks god sooo much! i m happy!!! but i guess i learn that maybe things shouldn't be taken so seriously and we ought to have fun in the things we want to do.

It's always the process that count because it gives so much than a prize can give you. So from now on, i will try! i will enjoy the things i do and do my best! Eleanor jia you! I shall enjoy the process and learn and learn and learn!

<3

I finally went out with Chong Yun, Jack and Alvin today! Finally!!! i have been waiting for this day like forever. We had a great time today! he's not moody or sian or wadsoever. I really hope we can do this often. I miss them all so much. Especially going out with Chong Yun.

You know the sad thing is as time pass and as we walk different paths, we form our own lives. We have new friends and sometimes we do not think much about the old ones. That's including me. But to be honest, all of us need friends no matter what. We just want someone out there to accept us. And i really appreciate all the friends i have out there. I may have my own life but I must remember for those who are closest to me and those who are willing to go through thick and thin with me.

Anyway, we played pool and bowling today. I think my friends have noticed it, somehow I am better today. Maybe somehow i learn not to be so worked up and excited and just play like what play should be. I seem totally relaxed today. I wasn't nervous or anything but i guess i was just being myself. Sorry i seem so tired!! My fault! Shouldn't have slept late yesterday. But also I prefer to be calm today la. Being hyper is good but i just want to be myself today. really!

But today is quite a fun day and i m really happy^^!

uneventful last min day

Today had my computer fixed FINALLY! XD Takes me sooooo long to fix this com until it feels so weird to even sit in front of the com. The untoched mouse also became really unfamiliar too. grrr grrrr... remind me to get a better one next time.

Anyway, aside from that, went out for dinner with a MI friend ,George today. He changed a lot. I mean ic annot recognise him liao! but overall it was quite ok. He had to go off pretty soon though. But ok la, he's nice enough to treat me.^^

A lot of things is last min!>.< but it's quite ok i guess. At least i dun go panick and freaky.

That's abt it^^!

emotion test

Copy, Paste, Don’t look at the bottom
before you do the thing or it won’t
work!
This is scary but pretty accurate.

1. Which colour is better red, black,
green, blue, or yellow?

green!^^ I like trees!

2. What’s your first initial?

E (duh!)

3. What month is your birthday?

Feb

4. Which colour do you like more, black
or white?

Neither, i m not emo nor m i blank.

5. Name one of your friends..

which one? there's so many! let's just pick one. Alvin

6. Your favorite number?

22

7. Do you like flying or driving more?

R u kidding?? of cuz flying!!

8. Do you like a lake or the ocean
more?

Lake! ocean is not too bad though!

9. Think of a wish, but don’t write it
- .........




–Answers–

1. If you chose:
Red: You are alert and your life is
full of love.

Black: You are conservative and
aggressive.

Green: Your soul is relaxed and you
are laid back.

Blue: You are spontaneous and love
kisses and affection from the ones you
love and give good advice to those who
are down.

Yellow - you are a very happy person..

2. If you’re initial is:
A-K: You have a lot of love and
friendships in your life.

L-R: You try to enjoy your life to the
maximum & your love life is soon to
blossom.

S-Z: You like to help others and your
future love life looks very good.

3. If you were born in:
Jan-Mar: The year will go very well
for you and you will discover that you
fall in love with someone totally
unexpected.

April-June: You will have a strong
love relationship that will last
forever.

July-Sept: You will have a great year
and will experience a major life-
changing experience for the good.*

Oct-Dec: Your love life will be great,
and eventually you will find your soul
mate.

4. If you chose:
Black: Your life will take you on a
different direction, it will seem hard
at times but will be the best thing
for you, and you will be glad for the
change.

White: You will have a friend who
completely confides in you and would
do anything for you, but you may not
realize it.

5. This person is most important to you

6. If it is:
1-50 you are a very lovable person and
you have a great life*
more then 50 is nothing

7. If you chose:
Flying - You like adventure.

Driving - You are a laid back person.

8. If you chose:
Lake - You are loyal to your friends,
your lover, and yourself. You are very
reserved and not emotional.

Ocean - You are spontaneous and like
to please people sometimes.

9. This wish will come true only if
you repost this with the title:

Emotion Test. don't cheat


I was bored so i tried this quiz. it's not that accurate but it was ok^^!!

TKD competition 2^^

i was too tired to post yesterday so i decided to write everything down today.

Yesterday, the matches were really exciting and somehow it spur me on to go and fight too.The killing aura was really uite strong in myself. I really felt it and when i turn to look at my friend, he jerked!!!! HAhahaha.... pretty cool! But while everybody did their best, there's alwways the need for improvement. I am not saying just them, but myself too!
Overall, we had 2 bronze, 2 gold and 2 silver.

Then later after that, everyone sat down and taled about our feelings. It's nothing mushy or whatsoever. It's like just saying out our thoughts and what we should do. After hearing everyone talk and my senior's comments, I made a few promises to myself. And I feel it's a not bad idea to actually listen to a straight forward comment.


The thing is I am not going to say anything here except maybe, JA YOU. As for the promises, no point saying it. When I really make them, i will indicate them here. i wan to be the best as i can as a person!! WO MEN DOU JIA YOU!!!! WE WILL SEE!!!!

TKD competition 1^^

Today was the aprring competition!!! yesterday was the pattern competition!!! My team was really mast min but i m really glad we sychonised with each other still and i am really happy for my team!! But i am happier when the other sun jian team made it to 2nd round. BUT YOU KNOW WAD??? WE didn't get any medal. U KNOW WHY? because they look at the freaking stances and not teamwork!! you know, getting perfect stances is hard but it's freaking harder to coodinate with each other AND OUR TEAMS ARE EVEN FREAKING BETTER THAN THE OTHER TEAMS!!! dun care them man, they did their best and we are really pround of them.

TODAY, we had 3 medals and I WAN TO CONGRATULATE DEVESTER, KELI, Eileen and watsisname (sorry!!! I forgot). They have won bronze, silvers and one of them got gold. AND ALSO GOOD JOB TO SUN JUN and MIN YI!!! You have done your best and i have seen how much hard work you put in! JIA YOU!! next year i will try my hand in sparring and if can, i will get a medal^^

Tonight, wad's with listening to rock music and thinking about the competition. I got a very excited and determined feeling. Something that I rarely feel and probably lick my lips in a bizarre way^^. I shall call this feeling, "fighter's lust". The feeling of wanting to "sa" and attack. sooooo not mself, but that's what i am feeling now. I really want to win for sp^^ and myself.

I AM GOING TO WORK HARD FOR TKD! I WANT TO!!! AND FOR MY COURSE IN DID!!!! i feel like kicking ass now -.-.

The song i was listening to! TO TURN OFF SONG,SCOLL ALL THE WAY DOWN AND OFF THE MUSIC!!

CRITICAL REASONING SKILLS B

PSYCHOLOGY AND COUNSELLING B+

Design Studio C

Interior Technology C

Theory of Design C

Computer Aided Desihn & presenttion D+

Here are my results! I PASSED^^! BUT DUN CARE! MUST JIA YOU! JIA YOU ELEANOR JIA YOU! COMPETITION IN 2 DAYS TIME!^^

Birthday XD

Happy birthday to me^^! hahahaha^^... ok! It's like a normal day becasue i didn't go out or anything but i find it really special and really... weird?

Why weird? here are the reasons:
1. I look good (usually my face's tradition is to break out and my stomach is not very obedient either>.<)

2. It's the hols for me

3. I am not stressing and go ARRRGH over homework or tests

4. I just look good^^


But other than that, I am really really happy. I know I m going to second year in my course (MUST IMPROVE XD) and I really thank God for all the gifts he had given me all the years and made me what I am today^^! Thank God so much!!^^ I am Super super happy when people remembered and greeted me happy birthday! I am really really happy^^. You can say that my birthday is quite easily forgotten over the years. Not saying that i m something special but i guess some part in me just want people to know. Hahaha... Am I strange or what.

But the truth is I am happy that everyone said happy birthday to me and i want to thank you truly from my heart.

My family celebrated with me yesterday at the restaurant Valentino, one of the best Italian restaurant in this country in my opinion. The food is MMMM... delizioso *kiss fingers*... Love the deserts*_*... Hahahaha... but yeah! I am really thankful to everyone who wished me and celebrated with me^^!

THANK YOU EVERYONE AND I WISH YOU TO HAVE A GOOD YEAR AHEAD!

Thank u!

To the people who are concern over me in tkd, sorry i was a littlr unappreciative. I was trying quite hard that i forgot to have fun and I was a little frustrated.

Anyway, abt my first job, i may not be so good yet! But that doesn;t mean i cannot improve. ELEANOR JIA YOU JIA YOU! It was my first time to do a flyer (graphic design) but while having fun, hope can improve a lot more! Must jia you!
And do good!

Anyway, i was feeling a little down today, because of some problems. But after seeing so many people take care of me in tkd, I wan to say a big THANK YOU! I m really blessed and happy to be side by side by you people.

I also thank God for giving such blessings. I learn today that I must have confidence in God and the things i do. A special friend, Sun jun, told me that there r times to relax and be serious and be confident abt myself.

I know i kind of sound strange here like a little kid, but i guess i m jus happy with the things i have now and i really really appreciate them^^.

i loooove yesterday

Yesterday, went out with my best friends after a very looong time. Believe me, it's really long since the three musketeers went out together and have a great time! Went shopping with the cutie pie, Madeleine and the hot sexy babe, Sherie. Hahaha... I really miss hanging out with them. Madeleine bought really cute clothes and stayed overnight. Pity sherie has to go home because she had work today. But i really had fun last night chatting with madeleine.^^

Btw,its the very first time we took neoprint together. Here it is:

what do you think of this story?

There was once a girl who lived a sheltered life,
everyday was something new and happy,
and then a wizard saw her pure soul
and he came up to her with an evil intention
the girl knows he's bad, it's obvious

Thw wizard told her," I give you the ability to speak to the deaf,
but once you have the ability,
you will die after one month.

The girl thought about it...
and said yes

From then on, she could speak and sing to the deaf
until when the day comes
when she laid on the bed with her family around her
"Are you sure of this?" They asked.
"It's my life anyway," she said with a smile

As she passed on,
the wizard collected her pure soul,
to use for his spell to spread sickness,
but what he didn't know was the soul could think for itself
and the spell didn't work

Through his frustrated tears
he saw a girl laughing and smiling

The thing here is if the girl refused,
the wizard will not be able to cast the spell
and she still have her precious life.

What do you think?

first time clubbing

I have no idea about clubbing until now. Hahaha... i didn't know it was this fun. Let's see, last night i went clubbing at zouk and MOS. The drinks were pretty good. I had shots like apple stewdal and sex on the beach. There was cherry brandy too. I got high enough but not high enough to go tipsy and shout I love the world.

Too be honest, I have no idea how to talk to my cousins. Maybe i am just too shy to open up to them or I just don't cliche. But other than that, my cousins were quite protective over me and I really appreciate that. Hmmm.... I do find it embarassing though. I was always the one to be taken care of. But at least we are all family. I may not fit in or may not be able to open up. But i am willing to try. I will definitely open up next time and have more confidence ove myself. I think life will be better this way.

Well.Overall it's still quite fun. I actually danced from 12 - 3:45am from house to mambo to R&B. pretty cool huh? That's abt it. I had some fun.^^

whoohoo!

Thanks god so much. You know, getting promoted to year 2 in Poly is not a big issue to many people but to me, it's like wow. I feel so So relieve and so happy. I can't describe how relieve or happy i was. After 1 year in failing in MI and 1 year of really totally slogging for my assignments, i went to year 2. It's a small acheivement yes... but to me, it's really big. i could even feel my tears.

I feel really thankful for my family supporting me especially the decision of transferring to poly and helping me with my work during my assignments. If i am demoralized, they always say encouraging things to me.

But i am not going to stop there. I am going to improve myself, I want to improve myself. I want to turn that dream i have into reality. So the first step will be my time management.

But other than that, I just want to say that I am really really happy about this. and really glad^^. it's feels so wonderful when my family said congrats to me.

hols

Ok... this is ther first hols that i really have nothing to do and i really really am not used to it. But then, again, i will be speaking the total opposite when i start working.

To be honest, all i want now is to know if i can make it to 2nd year. that's all i want.

But that aside, i also have a fun time. Last Sat, went to plaza sing and esplanade with Alice, Anglia and Sharon. It's pretty cool. I had the pleasure of shouting over the rooftop of esplanade. Somehow i got the impression that the guy near me thinks i am crazy. He gave me that "look" >.<. Hahaha... but it's quite fun actually. =P









Then i went swimming with my best firned, madeleine yesterday. I have thinned down a bit. That's pretty good. It was my first time going to jurong east pool. I looove the wave pool! it's so fun. Of cuz i came back with sun kissed cheeks and nose, but it's so very fun. But something not so good happened last night. I wish i can hug her.

Life does have lemons i guess, but i shouldn't forget the yummy cherries and mangoes... hahaha... but of cuz, words are easier said than done.

i dunno wad to say... it's over?

hmmm... It's over? The project is done and submitted and marks have been taken down. But to be honest, i know i ought to feel relaxed and happy. But i have these groundless fear of not being able to pass. So i am writing this down for some relief. But pls do not bring this topic up. It's not meant for people to give me encouragement and assurances which seems to very assured.-.-... sorry! it's just that i trat this blog as a way to broadcast the feelings of me. Of course there will be certain secrets but there will be these things in general.

Anyway, there's a movie that tug my heart. 881... I thought i won;t like it but it left me having affections for this movie and how people live. Dremas to be fulfilled, people to cherish, the importance of money, preserving the culture and so many things. But i really really found it touching and nice to watch. It's not like the other films, depressing and having a uncertain end that makes me go huh? The show is like having precious and happy moments and cherishing those faithful moments. There's also a certain humor in them and how people smile and be strong when they come to trouble.

I hope that I will be able to be trong and alays stand when i fall. Never give up and have a smile that brightens the day. hmmm... somehow the show took sentimental thoughts out of me. Hahahaha...

Yeah, but anyway, the show is nice.

GO DOWN IF YOU WANT TO OFF THE MUSIC!!!!

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2008!

Happy new year everybody and god bless! I hope that all your wishes come true and that you will be healthy and happy.

To be honest, quite a lot of things happened in 2007. First, it's my transfer from MI to SP.

Honestly, i was near depression duing that period of time before i decide to go to SP. I guess it's therealization of who I am and my flaws. But i dd somehow have a "new life" when i came to SP. I didn't regret withdrawing from MI, not at all.


Quitting the school is quite risky especially when i do not have a place in poly to go. But, thanks God that I really did got in. Anyway, it's not because i regretted joining MI, NEVER. I just don't fit in there. I am thankful for being in there. It's like a wake up call.

I guess i did change a bit. But i think it's not enough. I mean I don't want to change my entire self, i just want to be able to THINK for myself. instead of depending on the others.

It's not bad or anything, but i believe it's good to be independent. Because the one who can truly affect the future is myself. BUT! haha... it's easier said than done. But still, i really aprreciate my friends who are always there for me, giving me advice and tolerating my nonsense. I really appreciate it alot!^^

Anyway, I had some relationship problems this year. It's not surprising but it does hurts. It's somehow predicted by my feeling i guess. But after talking it out and compromising and finding ways to solve it, it's much better.

Then my grandmas had passed on. Not one but two, on both sides. Honestlt, i was scared when i first experience mama's (my dad's side) funeral. Guess i had not been to a funeral for a very long time. The second time, it's not too bad. But it's still sad. Reall sad. Both of them cared for me, both of them really loved me. My aunt told me about m grandma on dad's side. She always talked about me. Always smiled when i visit her. Haha... I can still remember how she would sit by my side while i draw. then there por por (my mom's side. she always cared for me when my parents are not home. Pet me to sleep when i got out of bed at night when i am yound. I guess i am closer to her because i get to see her often. I really cried a lot when she died. But I know boh of them are happy and resting.^^

Also, there's my first year in Interior Design. Hundreds of sleepless nights and late nights, working working working. There's frustration, I was tired and grumpy. But a brand new experience. I felt that i can appreciate art. I really want to be like i was in the beginning, eaer to learn, full of passion. So much fun. But at the 2nd semester, i wasa zombie for 2-4 months i think. But to be honest, I think i didn't feel depressed throughout the thing. I can still smile, i can still laugh, i don't have to cheer myself up every night. Also, i was too tired and busy to be depressed a thing. Took me two weeks away from the project to become myself again.

I learnt about psychology too! It's really fun! But to be honest, the information in the book is so elementary. Wish there's more. But yeah, i guess i did change a little. But it's progress!^^ Let it continue.

My resolution is to manage my time,lose weight and believe in myself. I think.


Anyway, Happy new year to you people out there. God bless and may your wishes come true!

wow music

i don't know but i never hear such a orchestra song that gives me the impression of the music itself is dancing before. The asian way of dancing, the graceful dancing. The lively dancing with feet tiptoeing at any time, the hands in the air, the smile of dancers dancing.

WOW....

SWITCH OFF THE MUSIC BELOW LEFT IF YOU WANT TO HEAR THIS MUSIC!

MERRY CHRISTMAS

This past 2 days, i have been eating and eating and eating. I think i better get off my lazy bum and qork out. Doing hmwk is also a must do. So the next few days, i am DOING my HMWK!

Had fun though. I can still remember my Godma's chocolate fondue fountain. Awfully tempting and sinful. I love the food on the christmas table. But i guess wad i really like most is the company. Met 4 adorable kids. Always playful but they are good kids (i think). Yup1 I spend last week training for my tkd and also i think i need to improve my physical condition. So i think it's time to attain some dicipline here.

Anyway, i was reading a person's blog. Call me naive, i don't care. But while it's ok to open your eyes and see a person's character. I don't quite agree if u see them as bimbos. jerks and sadistic maniacs. I mean, I have to admit, i used to think that i am better and seem to look down on others. Also tend not to trust anybody and found no way to laugh at their jokes. But it's natural i think. Because i had been hurt by people before. Thinking that way does help give you support. The hardest thing is to open yourself up and smile and trust people after the hurt had been done.

But it's been a year. Ever since this year after i took the first step, i now see people as my equals and not judge anybody. It took a while to take away that habit, but it worked. I don't know, but it seems to me that maybe life would be better if we lighten up a little. I don't see any wrong in it. It's ok to laugh at jokes at yourself. but remember to uphold that self-respect and not let people ill treat you. There may be flaws and weaknesses but don't forget that you are the same. After all we are are human beings. Even if we on't see the flaws in a person, he or she may have it hidden or we just missed it.

Anyway, at least that's what i think. I don't think the world is perfect and there may be a time that i myself will get hurt again. But if we are to shut our eyes and ears and our hearts, i don't think there will be happiness, or at least that's for me. It's not easy i know, but i think it's really worth to give it a try.

sudden poem^^

I was watching this show, Hwang Jin Yi. A touching show but the dances are really... wow! I admire the lady, standing up for herself, being strong minded, gifted in every ways. She's also really beautiful. The only reason why people look down on her is that she is a courtesan which i find really sad. Probably the first show to make me cry so badly until my eyes got infected >.<. Check this video out! GO DOWN BELOW AND STOP THE SONG IF U WANT TO SEE THIS VIDEO.




Anyway, the show left me thinking about it and I suddenly got an inspiration for a poem.

If beauty….

If beauty meant eternal sorrow,
My heart will bleed for its lovely tune,
Lest it holds that much hope,
Perhaps fragrance will change chances,
Hold strong the flower of Far la so,
Make sure it tramples not its soul,

Idealism makes the lark cheer,
Lest it didn’t the lark swallow,
Hold strong my wish to be,
I give thee hope if to make such beauty.

heh...

Do you know, it's really funny as if my mind is quite unpredictable, my emotions are really unexpected. I am actually feeling that i am blessed by god now. i wonder why. God has been so good to me. He gave me family. He gave me friends, he gave me passion, he did not give me a perfect life but he gave me a some things in life which makes me smile and laugh and think wow.

it's so strange this feeling. Like something i never feel in a long time. It's so very strange. strange...

Anyway, the weekend was good. I enjoy the outing with anglia and alice. Hahaha... they are both so funny. We visited the design exhibition about the works of an architect, alva alto. Then we gourge ourselves at Ala-meen. the malay and indian restaurant. It's really quite a different experience! the atmosphere is different and the food is quite good! anyway, we were really quite full. I was the one whose the least full. hahaha...

yeah, so i took a break. anyway, here are some photos!

alva alto exibition





and random pics from us!




that's abt it! god bless!

2 more weeks to chirstmas holidays

2 more weeks of craziness to chirstmas holidays. Looking forward to it really. I need a break, to laugh smile and hold my dear ones close especially one particular guy. I miss him.^^ Anyway, i hope you like the new song1 it's nice and jazzy and not too bombastic for this blog. Uber cool!

Ahhhhh.... I need to focus on my design project(sick of this word but can't find other words)!

HURRY CHIRSTMAS HURRY!

>:

I am just writing my frustration down and so pls don't bring this up. i dun need to talk about it or more like don't want to and i DUN wan any sympathy.

I haven't seen an F for a very long tme until recently. nowi got an F in IT. like ****. Y am i taking this so seriously because I want to move on, not to be retained or kicked out. when I saw this result, memories of last year came back to me. The agony of always failing, the agony of fear over my results, the disappointment of my parents. I really feel very ****** up.

I cannot continue like this. I must buck up and get rid of all this. I don't want to ruin my life, depend on my parents throughout my life. One *********** year is enough. I swore last year i will never burden my family. I have to improve. No matter what it takes.

a very so-called break

I won't say that this is not a break and I won't say that this is the time to relax. As long as my course is still up and running everyday, i find it hard to really become a couch potato or to really relax like it's a holiday. In a way, it is good of course. But i am feeling much better... way much better. I think.

Last Sat, i went out with Faz to watch a movie, Bewolf. It is not really bad. I just don't like the scary part of a deformed human, and man being eaten. I also hate the nude bodies in the movies. Not that I am rigid about moral values, it is just that the full blown sight irks me >.<.

Ever since friday (crazy day) night, I have been lazing until now. But i stopped this laziness few mins ago and I am going to touch my work again.

Anyway, nothing much really happened but here r some photos that Faz and I took.







P.S sorry for the blur pics

frustration boiling

I dunno what I should feel. Should i feel indifferent or angry or frustrated? I bet it''s frustration. frustration over ot knowing what to do, frustration of not doing things right, frustration on how things are not going my way. I cannot stand it. Why does it have to happen to me?!?

I didn't sleep for 44 hours, worked like crap on one model and it still doesn't show my concept. Argh! grrrrrr.....

If i say i hate it, it will only be demoralising. But what to do? How brain how?!? jus work for once for pete's sake.

Argh! I pray and hope my crit is not on friday, i have a very bad feeling that it would be.

>.<

happy deepavali!

HAPPY DEEPAVALI to the people out there! Hope u have fun!
I am still feeling the impact of sleeping one full night. I didn't sleep for the past 3 days. Actually I intended to sleep for 1 hour yesterday before going back to my work. Turns out that I slept for 5 hours, from 8pm to 1 am. Then before i get to touch my laptop, my mom forced me to sleep. Said something about mumbling in your sleep is not very good.

As usual, I stll didn't get very good comments in my design so i have to rethink my ideas. Thought of new ideas, hopefully more will come out. Feeling abit sleepy but hey, at least i had some sleep... hahaha....

Sheesh.... if there's one thing i will never do, it will be telling my mom to read this blog. It's bad enough to see her sometimes listening to my conversation on the phone. letting her see my personal thoughts will be downright creepy.

Anyway, I will be going out to see one of the lecturer's office with my friends. quite cool!

here's some of the not very good pics of my model:

exterior:


interior:

AHHHH....

AHHHH...how to do my model? My sprained hand is aching and i have to lean on it,O.O

wad happened the past few days

Well, on sat night, we had dinner with my uncle who came back from NZ and will be going back there again somewhere in next week or this week. The chinese dinner was really good especially the appetizers, toufu and dessert. Hahaha... I wish i brought my camera along.

Then we went to a bar and played pool in the clubhouse called legion. It was really cool. I had a drink called Sex On The Beach. It was really yummy. Quite fruity and sweet. And i learned how to play pool properly. Hahaha... FUN....

Other than that, life is pretty normal We have e-learning week this week. That means I can catch up with my thoughts and what I want to do. Hahaha... Hope i can get things done in advance.

Today had TKD (aka tekuando), I found how much my stamina lack and somehow i overexerted myself and couldn't breathe. I feel really embarassed and guilty. But I really thanks the people who show concern to me. Thanks a lot. Other than that, I don;t want to talk about it.

So yeah, Better catch up with my hmwk and catch up with God as well. It's time to come back to him and thank him for all these blessings.

That's about it! God bless!

e-learning week

Yesterday was really a relief. After a week full of work and everything, somehow having no sleep is not really an option... hahaha... But overall it's quite fun. Yesterday, i thought the lecturer will frown on my work, so horrible looking, but somehow she didn't. hahaha... Then we saw her cry when she tried to explain to us what it is to truly design. Kind of shows that she is quite concern for us and she is really true to design.


Psychology lesson was really fun. With all the skits and presentation. Most of the skits are quite funny. If I weren't hapf dead, I could have laughed more. Guess what, I was asked to act like a flirt yesterday. I think it's quite wierd though..hahaha... but it is funny.

Then the same personal matter pops up again and I felt my heart trown somewhere far off that I can barely reached it. I only knew that I was panioking inside and I am trying to think about it. There are friends who were there for me yesterday. Thanks you all.

While I still am very very worried over that matter, I will still say that overall, yesterday was ok. There's good times and bad times. Guess, I just have to learn how to take this matter.

hmmm

Don't ask me why.... I just find this video is rather inspirational.. it's a bit angsty... But yeah, it's good to stand again and run again.

PRESS ESC IF YOU WANT TO OFF SONG!

resilience

hahaha... I got inspired by a piano song. So i wrote this poem randomly. There's quote that says, "I will try again tomorow". Even if i were to fail anf fail, I have to keep trying. Because I want to make something out of myself. To be someone who have somethingi unique in the world that the world don't have.

Giving great thought,
To sense of resilience,
Like a great spell cast against me,
I wonder what I will be,
To be good in the things I want to do?
Or just watch it collapse against my clumsy fingers?
If insecurities are there to suffocate,
I pray that I am not the victim.
But everything needs attempt yes?
If there were never mistakes,
Never never could I learn.

good news and not so good news

The critique was quite a relief really.... since I have expected worse. But it does gives me the sense of needing to improve. Especially my aesthetic sense. I don't think I am really myself today, but i can't help it -.- . Anyway, although i had fun messing around with facebook, I still hate being one of the last few to present. It's justt too stressful. But oh well, it's over. So it is time for a hot chocolate and some rest before I begin working again.^^

Guess wad? I passed my grade 8 piano exam! WHOOT!

alive kicking

You know, there's a local term for how i feel now. It's called "kick dao shuang".... In orther words, after my CCA today, I feel really refresh. I don't know why. I just do. Actually today,i feel a little disheartned and angsty but i guess maybe i shouldn't hub over my failure so much.

Now all i want is to get fresh ideas so i don't have to be so lost. Maybe i should go to the CCA more often. and not spend too much time in my work. If not, maybe we will just feel burned out by the work we do. So yeah, i should just go out for a walk or exercise with a group of friends next time. ^^

that's about it today!Feels good to kick those bad feelings away.

cool fun break

Finally i can afford a break to the hectic confused week! Went out with Liang hao and watched a movie called "balls of fury" and then went shopping over some stuff. Hahaha.... It's been so long since I went out with him. It's really really cool! hahaha..... I get to try some hats!!! Too bad i got no camera to take them. For some reason, hats became really interesting to me. It's like something fancinating to try on. Hahaha.... So today was not too bad. In fact, it's good to take a break once a while. Let me feel refreshed!^^ Well... that's about it today. Here's one groovy babe whom i found really cool! PRESS ESC IF U WANT TO SWITCH OFF SONG!

-.-

th emost frustrating to think of now is losing the flow of my thinking. It was going great jus now until one particular moment. I don't know whether I should just act frustrated. Imagine trying to keep yourself awake even though you took a nap in the afternoon and finally get the flow of the thinking and it stopped all of a sudden. Darn emotions. It's really really frustrating.

takes coffee and get a grip

That's it. I am not going to dwell in this stupid meaningless swirling of emotions and getting lost in it and ecoming cluttered after that. I am getting a grip and HE better msg by tmw if not I am not going to be very happy. So starting from now, I am so going to pick myself up and do this work! *rah*

motivated

It's been a week of swirling emotions. Most of the days spent cracking my brain to come up with a relevant concept for my project. Finally come up with "Graceful Sense of Balance" by wednesday. But then, after that, I have to create two more concept models and 1 study model by friday. I only started on thursday. So by thursday night, I had experience a big hugwe topedo of emotions. First I was emo, then I had brain spasm which means I was laughing quite out of no reason. Guess it must be my body's way to destress. After that, I got emo again and I became agitated becoz my friend said sth that frightens me. So many emotions in one night. I think my brain had a short circuit after that. Because I couldn't think anymore. I Anyhow did my study model and it became an AQUARIUM!!!! Horrible. I am supposed to create a gathering room, not an AQUARIUM! So after a very good night odf rest. I will be redoing my model, hopefully by today and tmw I will start on my second model. Must jia you! But this time I am not going to push myself so hard that I can't breathe.

Here's some of the work I have done.

My mood boards

1st mood board
vitality


2nd mood board
graceful sense of balance


my concept models






my study model

anyhow done

VENT VENT!

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I feel so so..... argh! 8 hours of racking brain last night with sleep stocked away very redundantly! 2 days and 8 hours of ******** thinking of the concept and also finally thinking that it's the right one and they just took 1 min to hear about it, and 1 sec to say IT"S A NO!!!!!!!!!!!!

NO NO NO NO NO!

Rah! Okay! After this ranting, i better calm down! I feel so frustrated. Like how? It makes me feel I am so.... brainless. What am I going to do now? Sigh! I have to keep pushing forward no matter what!

Anyway, the second concept I came up with is "Beyond The Realm". I thought it's poetic and it is unique to the chinese acrobats but it turn out to be too general. They said I am too ambitious. Maybe I should relax a bit and look again! I DON"T KNOW! But I HAVE TO TRY! Anyway, here's my cocept model for beyond the realm.




wish me luck! T.T

ARGH!

It's been days and I have yet to comeup with a good concept! At first I chose 'vitality' but aftr showing the lecturersmy concept, they said it's wrong because of it being too "loose"! Hope I get the concept soon!!

concept concept!!

I need to think of a concept which i have yet to think up. Hmmm... my lecturers told me that I am not analytic enough! Argh! It's the same comments as last time. So what I am going to do now is to read my research and instructions clearly before i continue. Let's hope I don't mess up this one.

Attended my psychology lesson yesterday. They say that if you think you can do it, you can do it. So I am going to do that now and kick ass,

Speaking of kick ass, I have tkd grading tomorrow. I will pass!!! Better jia you!

tea

Tea cup!

Had tea with a friend today. It's not really bad! hahaha.... The tea was really yummy. Going to the cafe is really fun when you ae either in the mood or with some friends. So yeah it's really nice! I like the tea cups. It will be so cool if I have them at home.

Anyway, still trying to figure out the concept for my project! Rah! I don't care! Must keep doing my best! Anyway, we had some comments from our lecturers. It's something about transitional space and brain storming more than ten ideas. Think I better go and research a bit more. The picture is sooo sooo blur... Better get it right!

New project

9 days more before honey comes back. Missing him but yes, I am still coping. I hate mt results so now, I am pushing myself to become better. Believe me, it's hard but I am so going to kick my ass to work harder.

Anyway, yes, I had my project on Monday and it was like "huh?". Basically they want us to design a performance theatre via house. They separated us into groups and I got into chinese acrobatics. Okay, I am trying to research all I can. But in order to have a clearer picture, my group decided to research on just 1 troupe, and that is shangri la acrobatics. They are a really cool group. However, my research has gone lala.... Basically I can't find enough research in the net. Sigh.... Must keep trying!

Good news is that I talked to honey on phone for a min today. I miss him! so hearing his voice really made my day. But i think all that is important is that he is safe and okay and he can come home safely.

I am so going to make myself improve this time! Must JIA YOU!

last day of holiday

Yes, I am feeling the back to school blues. The jazz music doesn't really help either. It just makes me feel more blue.

Nothing much happnened today. My family and I went to church for my grandma birthday. She pass away a few months ago. But we know that she is happy. I remembered the dream of her saying goodbye. She was just standing there, smiling and waving goodbye with an umbrella. My dad said the imbrella is used to protect them.I Love my grandma.

Then we went for lunch and had a good chinese lunch. My favorite dishes will probably be the tofu and the abalone soup.^^ Then after that I went for a haircut. To be honest, I feel weird! It is like a different kind of hairstyle. Oh well... Have to wait for it to grow out.

Later, my mom and I watched the movie, coach carter. It's really inspiring. It's all about a coach teachng teenagers about doing something more about their lives. Really really cool! I had not seen such a coach before or have yet to see one. But anyway the movie is really good.

Here is a little preview:



yup! It is really cool! That's about it today^^.

Day mixed with good and bad

Today is really eventful (somewhat painfully). First i woke up early so that I can meet him earlier before setting off with him to changli airport. So happened I got stuck in a traffic jam in the morning and the taxi that I took got into an accident.

Nice right? You know, just pointing out directions to the taxi driver is not anything wrong but he swerved and hit another taxi. Then, he blamed me, Kind of tell me off, but really man, is it really my fault? The driver ought to be alert of where he is driving. Good thing that he never invloved me with the negotiations. That time I don't know what to feel, I think I was quite anxious.

I told to my bf about it, but he told me not to dwell over it, because it is not my fault. After that, went with him to the airport and sent him off. His friends are really funny and some of them are really friendly. I like their jokes. The teacher was trying to get photos of us la! But I took some shots and I will say it's not vry nice so i am not going to show it here.-.-

After that, I just drop by my best friend's house to hang out for a while. I found out that PS3 rox! It has wireless control. After that jus drop by art friend, get some supplies and that's about it.

It feels weird tonight because he is overseas. But I guess this kind of things is inevitable.

high school musical

I am not really crazy yet abt them but i must say they are really good!



http://ivancitomusic.imeem.com/video/fiMrbRvZ/were_all_in_this_together/

Haix... interesting week _._

_._ this week is one interesting week! Very interesting week. I found out I bathed in brown water. I think there must be interesting and unique minerals and proteins which may be good for my skin. (Let's just look at the bight side.) Then I got bites from some so fans which happened to be bed lice. I can feel the itch of joy coming through.


Most likely I am going to use this blog if there's any frustration that I have in mind. Probably because honey is going to be overseas for 3 weeks. But I think I will keep myself busy so I won't even think about it. I will sure miss him though.

Anyway, school starting next week. I hope to be kept really busy because i want to be busy. So here's the back to school blues. But I had fun this holidays, going out and all.

Hope time pass by fast so I can see him again.

wow.....new blogskin

okay guys! i know it looks alittle weird but i m new at this k? This is the first time i am messing around with html codes and i am still very blur about it. So hold your critisms until later. Why I choose this background? Basically because the cup of coffee looks pretty comfy and friends always love to chat over a drink.I am a cafe fanatic ( not a coffee fanatic, don't get it wrong) and so yeah, i decide to use this background. holiday is ending soon. Hopefully i come out better than before. I had some fun this holidays. First time I did real shopping. Guess now I know why people become shopoholic now. I BOUGHT BOOTS! Wahahaha... first time ever. Probably thinking that i should post some of my projects and life stories here.So feel free to take a look! ^^

the beauty of life

Ifind it so strange.I mean... there's so many things we have taken for granted. Our senses, the things we have, the fact we are alive, the many valuable things thatwe can reach for.

I wonderif I,myself can even go up and tell somebody that life is beautiful.

Yet, I have seen so many people suffering, stuck in the circle of darkness, having no idea where the light is. strange isn't it? Sometimes when we need the light the most, will someone stretch out his or her hand and bring us out of the darkness? Or do we find that light for ourselves? I remember being alone, being a person who no one wants to become friends with. Who can just be fade in the darkness and no one will feel different. The feeling is terrible. Really terrible. But i guess maybe becuse God gave me a helping hand and he took me out of the drowning waters and gently tell me to think again. Somehow i did and maybe i should think of the past if it appear on my mind. Not dwell in it but just to achknowledge and learn from it.

The most beautiful things in life are the things we probably don't really notice, Family, friends or maybe our 7 senses. Only those who didn't really have them and just to have them start to appreciaite it.

If there is to be one goal in my life, then i guess that will be ' to become a better person and make people believe too."

hahaha... Sorry i seemed to have said really random stuff, it just pop out of my mind.

Life list:
1.to be a happy and healthy person
2. to treasure the things i have around me

The fat dream poems

i made some poems.... whoohoo forthe competition ( i think).

Fats and dreams

Fats and rice,
Dreams and pies,
Fat and dreams don’t slice,
Eat and fill
Swallow them whole
Then feel the bottom rise
Sing the song of fat dream’s price
And watch the song go wide.

Comes true?

Certain realm has certain taste,
Lies the grim of hard work paste,
So beautiful the dream that swell,
Doesn’t exist where pigs had dwell,
Shortcuts shone the way to fame,
But effort lies on the way ahead,
Up to you that’s what they say,
Comes true or not it will it will?

Catch me if you can

I am fat,
I am will,
I am the dream of what comes true,
Soon to find my merry man,
Who twist and work and wriggle as well,
Those who lie won’t keep my pace,
Hurry hurry,
Don’t stop in pain,
Come to me in decent pace.